Category Archives: Despair

Risking love, part 3 – the purge

…And so began my quest to purge my emotions and hopefully arrive in a place where I feel more whole, forgiving, and accepting of myself, my limitations, and my dilemma with my girl… My purging journey lasted an entire day … Continue reading

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Risking love, part 2 – the complication

“Once upon a time there was this man, this man that I fell for –who I shared an electricity with.” Months ago and all along the way she warned me: “It was so real and so powerful that I can’t … Continue reading

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Destroy the Ring and find your fig!

Perhaps it is dramatic of me to say but… sometimes I feel like Frodo Baggins tasked with carrying the One Ring to be destroyed in the fires of Mt. Doom. There are a slew of demons that my quest requires … Continue reading

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Tapping into a channel

Some Asian cultures believe that creativity comes into being from forces external to the self; the self is just a channel through which creativity flows. If you try to praise one of the people who believes this, they might give … Continue reading

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To die? “To die would be a great adventure!”

I come face to face with my experiences of responding to the news that graduate school has rejected me. Join me as I use clips from Hook and Rent to take you with me on my emotional roller coaster. I try to find a balance between idealism (fantasy) and reality and I try to figure out what direction I am going to go. Could “love” be the answer? Continue reading

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